So I'm back with another post.
If you read my previous post, I was clearly very angry.
It's been approximately 3 weeks and I'm not angry, but maybe I am.
I'm still confused.
I haven't spoken to that person all this while and I thought that time could help me think through and perhaps think about my actions and what led to that fight in the first place but it's been 3 weeks and I still can't seem to come to a conclusion.
Although the most reasonable thing to do right now is to apologise (it would definitely be most ideal, wouldn't it) and move on, I find myself unable to do that.
Maybe it's because I am sick and tired of this situation continuously repeating over and over and I'm being a total cliche here when I say: Maybe it's not me, it's you.
If this situation is always happening, and with many different people including myself, perhaps there might be something wrong happening on your end?
Perhaps you don't like being told you're wrong but that's exactly what you are right now: Wrong. We are all humans and we are all sinful by nature which means we are flawed. You are definitely not the exception.
I have come to the conclusion that we will not keep in touch in the future. If it means having to move to an entirely different continent and cutting off all contacts, I would do that if it means I don't have to fight with you anymore.
So that is my motivation right now: To do well in school so that I can leave this country to run away from you. Sometimes when facing the situation blows up in your face, the best thing to do is to run away.
Call me a coward, but that's exactly what I plan to do: Run away.
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