Last Words

It started out as a joke, but then I began to think more about it. 

What will your last words be? 

I just finished Looking for Alaska by John Green, which is a brilliantly written book and everyone should read it. 

Looking for Alaska is about this boy who loves reading up on people's last words, and then something tragic happens (to him). 

What if you suddenly die right now? What will your last words be? 

I actually googled 'Last Words' because I was so intrigued. I think last words are really what people remember you by. Of course, they would remember how you lived, how you spoke, how you acted but really, it also comes down to what you last said. What you say last, can be forever etched in people's memories. 

I was joking with my cell group the other day about last words, and then we got talking about Mr. Monteith's death and how his last tweet was 'oh. IT'S A SHARK TORNADO.'

Of course, it shows what sort of a goofy person he was, but at the same time, how tragic it was that those were his last words (technically since no one was in the hotel room with him). 

We then quickly turned to our twitter accounts to see what our last tweets were because what if, suddenly, we just died? What would our last tweet be (Isn't it funny though, last tweet because social media is what everybody cares about these days)? 

Mine was some weird tweet to YJ about going cronut-hunting when we were 60 years old while V's was 'It's good to be home' which I thought was very sweet, and truly apt if you were to die right now. 

I then jokingly tweeted, 'And in this moment, we are infinite.'. 

However, what started out as a joke, started to feel real in my mind. 

That quote was by Mr. Stephen Chbosky, from the book Perks of Being a Wallflower (another brilliantly written book) and strange as it is, I truly would love that quote to be my last words.

Truly, I want to live life to the fullest. I want every second of my life to feel worth it, to ensure that every moment in time made me feel special and happy and just thankful to be alive.

In that moment when I die, I want to die happy. I want to die thankful. I want to die knowing that I have led a wonderful life, and that I can die satisfied. I want to die feeling infinite. 

Here is what I'm thankful so far: 

My family, my friends, my cell group, my ability to read, being able to live in a well-furnished house, being able to learn what I love to learn, being able to go to school, having the freedom to do what I love to do, being able to jump, to walk, to scream, to shout, to write, to type, to smile, to cry, to laugh. 

There are a million and one things to be thankful for and I am so happy. 

I am so happy that I have this wonderful life, filled with wonderful people and yes, no life is perfect and everyone has their bad days but really, how lucky and how blessed we all are to be alive. 

TO BE ALIVE IS TO TRULY LIVE! 

Winston Churchill's last words were: 'I'm bored with it all' and that's how I want to die because that means he's lived. He's truly lived and he has seen everything and that is his time to go because he is finally done living and he has grown bored with this life on Earth. 

I want to be like Augustus Caesar and declare that 'The play is over, applaud!' because my life was truly one big exciting performance and I can take my final bow and be done with it all. I want to be like Jane Austen and say 'I want nothing but death' because I've done and wanted everything and anything and there is nothing else to want. 

THAT is how I want my life to be lived, THAT is how I am determined to live my life and THAT is the way that should be lived! 

Before I go, I leave you with the paragraph that inspired this post. Read it, think about it because that is how I want my life to be so that my last words can truly be magical, and something I really mean, and words I can finally say with pride and joy and thankfulness. 

What will your last words be? 

'I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story, you are alive. And you stand up and see all the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you're listening to that song on that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we... are.... infinite.' - Stephen Chbosky, Perks of Being a Wallflower (Charlie's Last Letter by Michael Brooke)