2 more days

So there's basically 2 more days left of the 'O' levels...

Time passes really quickly when you're taking the examination that determines your whole life I guess.

I don't actually know what i feel after my papers. 

I feel neither that fantastic, nor do I feel that miserable. 

I guess partly because I feel like I could score pretty well on the paper (I mean, there wasn't one paper where I was desperately racking my brains for answers but there were questions that I wasn't sure as well) and that part is for the 'don't-feel-that-miserable' part but I also don't feel that great about my papers because well... I'm average. 

I've always been average. I've always been that average student that, try as she might, can't yield the best results. 

I know everybody's like 'No, you're special! You're unique!' yeah well, truth is, we're all average. 

There are the fantastic ones, yes, and the not-so-fantastic ones, and then there are the average ones. 

I don't expect the best results from myself, yet I still expect myself to do well enough to get into the school of my choice. 

I've always been average and I've learnt to accept that over time. 

I don't have the best life, but it's endurable. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is... Life is all about living through it. 

I'm not going to change the world with what I do, nor am I ever going to let myself just fall through life without doing anything. 

I'll be that average girl, living through an average life, trying her very best to live through it without any major disaster from happening to her and you know what?

I have learnt to accept that. 

Maybe, I'll never be that journalist, or that actress that I have always wanted to be, but I'm fine with that. 

Maybe I'll never be able to go to the best schools that I want to go, but if I just allow myself to lead a happy and somewhat-fulfilling life, I'll be fine with it. 

I've seen the average, and the great, and the not-so-great and I have to admit that I feel that average person, has the best life. 

I'm average and I'm fine with it.